I’m devoting this Monday to meditation, reflection and devotion to submission. I hope to select topics that will get you thinking differently about some part of your life or submission and then just maybe grow a little bit further. If you have ideas for topics that might work for a Meditation Monday, please email me.
KnyghtMare and I are still working through some pretty massive stress that has impacted our dynamic and taxed our relationship. We are merely functioning in the same space some days. KnyghtMare's long time girlfriend, Kiva, broke up with him at the end of May and he's going through the long and painful grieving process for that relationship. Our money issues are starting to subside but now we are faced with the damage it has left behind and the long road to recovery. We have to move by the end of July because our lease is up. All of these negatives in our life and I have to force myself to appreciate the small things.
Everyone has time in their lives where things don't feel like they are going their way at all. It can drag you down or you can search for the positive. I admit that I've spent several days over the past 4 months in bed because the weight of the world was just too much for me to bear that day. But when I do get out of bed, I find the small joy that will keep me going. For example, when KnyghtMare comes out of his grief shell to tell me he loves me and cares for me I store that piece of joy. When I receive a check from Subguide ads that I didn't expect and can pay a bill, that weight is lifted and I can savor the sensation. And so it goes.
Learning to see even the small positives when your world is dim and you are struggling is not an easy task. I'm far from perfect at it, but as I learn I'm growing. I've maintained a gratitude log for the past month or so in my Bullet Journal to help keep me inspired and to recognize that my life isn't filled completely with stress, anxiety and depression; we have flickers of light and they will only grow brighter in time.
You don't have to be in such a terrible state that KnyghtMare and I are right now to appreciate the small moments in your life.
Sit down some time today and start a gratitude log. Write down at least one thing you are grateful for today. Remember it doesn't have to be huge. If you do this on a regular basis you will learn to appreciate every tiny moment that gives you joy or a positive light in your world.
From Daisies and Storms
Appreciate ever glimmer of joy and happiness amidst the shower of negative emotions.